2008

May

“i went in search of something…only to realize, it was...”
May 16th

dear dad,

holy. shit. i’m You. i am 100% certain that i have turned into a mini version of the man you...
May 15th

hi. how are you?

stop.  think.  take your time to sincerely answer this question. if we did, most people will...
May 15th
“to play it safe is not to play.”
— robert altman
May 15th

territory that should be left unmarked

me: oh! he's really cute!
me: but he works on your floor.
me: oy! could you even imagine?
me: NO
May 14th
this is not going to be good for business...
May 14th

it really grinds my gears...

when i spill coffee on myself first thing in the morning!  humph!
May 14th

i don't want what i wanted

it’s weird to realize some of your dreams or desires have changed…a lot. to realize that...
May 14th

five things

i used to write down 5 things a day that made me smile. i am awful at keeping journals despite my...
May 14th
“Failure is impossible.”
— susan b. anthony, activist for...
May 14th
“sometimes i’m so comfortable with being...”
— me. uncomfy + confining. i...
May 13th

it seems heart + head never see eye to...

May 13th

blessings

counting them all this morning. Every. Last. One. + praying for those in china. it’s just...
May 13th

i have Never been a front runner...

and refuse to start now. buying james frey new book today.   so he lied.  i’m over it....
May 12th
“of all forms of courage, the ability to laugh is the most...”
— chapter 28, too old too...
May 12th

priorities

need to straighten mine out. it is a difficult thing to know how to get to the light but not have...
May 12th
“Books say: She did this because. Life says: She did this....”
— Julian Barnes, in Flaubert’s...
May 12th
“seriously!? i think we have three vaginas between us right...”
— me in a very girlie girl...
May 9th

boundries

somwhere along the line, i started to travel outside of mine. sometimes i wish i could color inside...
May 9th
“the most secure prisons are those we construct ourselves”
— chapter 11, too soon too...
May 9th

i'm not going to lie...

i would Kill for a bootleg copy of SATC. yes i know: bootlegs are bad + the entire industry loses...
May 9th
beautiful girls
May 8th
“any relationship is under the control of the person who...”
— chapter 5 of too soon too...
May 8th

larry david

my other dream man. thought i should level the playing field a bit…or at least enter the other...
May 8th

update

on this: i found it!  and i literally said outloud “i found it! i found it!” again, i am...
May 7th
“dear sam, i wish i may i wish i might wish upon a star...”
— -my best friend jami she...
May 7th
i saw this photo at the richard avedon exhibit at the met...
May 7th

i just bought a brand new box of crayola...

i suggest you do the same. happy hump day! 
May 7th
“the statue of limitations has expired on most* of our...”
— -from too soon old, too late...
May 7th

dear momma,

you know how when i was a kid you used to make me + brett go to the bathroom every. single. time. we...
May 6th

Penn Badgley

is my dream man…uh, boy?      arrest me now.  i don’t care. i love him.  + i am...
May 6th
that night
May 6th
“love you- you’re amazing. people can suck- people are...”
— me to a Fabulous writer friend...
May 6th

that guy

have you ever had a someone in your life that drives you Up a wall— pining after you for...
May 6th
“In the middle of difficulty lies opportunity.”
— albert einstein
May 5th

too sensitive

me. it’s really becoming a liabilty.  don’t worry about breaking my heart: i’ve...
May 5th
“another reason we are soulmates. i wrote an 8 page paper...”
— -alexis, in reference to...
May 2nd

firsts

they are usually quite significant: kisses, lovers, marriages… it’s funny though how...
May 2nd
“and i believe there comes a time, when everything just falls...”
— pat benatar, all fired up hell...
May 2nd

female masturbation: why still such a...

why do you think this is?  is it just me?  me thinks not… here’s my theory: while men...
May 2nd
“it’s never too late to have a happy childhood”
— -tom robbins i’m still...
May 1st

Apr

“even the holy one dances with the devil.”
— literally my oldest friend. ...
Apr 30th

john mayer

good for me.  not good for jen aniston.
Apr 30th
“i spar against my demons of doubt. i grapple with my...”
— Eddy Rolon, mixed martial arts...
Apr 30th

vulnerability

nothing wrong with experssing a bit of this at times. not a Damn thing wrong!
Apr 29th

i wonder

what will happen if all the Loveliness that lives inside my head does not… no no!  Impossible...
Apr 29th
“gosh s why don’t you just be honest! dan will Totally...”
— me, last nite to myself....
Apr 29th

note to self:

attempt to extend yourself as much off the mat as you do while on it. flexibility is not one of my...
Apr 29th

what's worse?

knowing what you have to do to make Essential changes in your life, having the heart + the mind to...
Apr 29th
why must i Always read this during dinner?
Apr 29th

call me lazy

but i cannot partake in any political debating or get too wrapped up in the campaign trail as of...
Apr 29th

note to boys:

pick up the phone.  call.  the initial communication should be a call. it sends the wrong message...
Apr 28th

self talk

the 5th grader inside of me is screaming for acceptance, a level of insecurity that makes me feel...
Apr 28th

happiness to me

walking home from a great workout, fresh groceries in hand, feeling the sun… simple things...
Apr 26th

your dreams

own them.  they are Yours. don’t let anyone step on them, steel them, take them away from...
Apr 26th

i wish you could steel my eyes...see...

you’re Beautiful.
Apr 26th

wish

sometimes i wish i had the answers to things that, well, i don’t have the answers to.  while...
Apr 26th

time wasting contest*

i win. hands down. don’t even try to challenge me. *disclaimer: this does not apply to my on...
Apr 25th
“oh hello betty. i like to keep up the illusion that i...”
— -claire meade, daniel’s...
Apr 25th

on...

on figuring shit out: Always.  work in progress over here… on fitting in: don’t want...
Apr 25th

a true story by samantha

we’re all just trying to get along. trying to make life a bit more interesting, trying to...
Apr 24th

going through my head this morning

1) what’s the deal with meg white? 2) dear strokes, please come play for me this summer. ...
Apr 24th
what i was thinking at the time*…  when he left i was alone again.  but i was alone a long...
Apr 24th

stop trying so hard

you’re cool just being You.
Apr 24th

great sex

when i hear this word, thrown around several times, in an entirely monotone voice, during a work...
Apr 23rd

realization

this blog is only half of what i thought it would be but i love what it has been + is becoming. i...
Apr 23rd
“i have a feeling you’re getting ready to soar”
— last line in an email i just...
Apr 23rd

my heart is conflicted

wear adorable new summer dress…or save it for summer? wear it ;) happy hump day! Xxs
Apr 23rd

dear flavia machine,

there was one of you at my old office. never quite my cup of tea (or coffee) though desperate times...
Apr 22nd
“i’m still asking those questions.”
— -my pop. gosh i Love...
Apr 22nd

note to self:

don’t be so awful with names. it seems so out of character for you. you remember...
Apr 22nd
“Every morning in Africa, a gazelle wakes up. It knows it...”
— -african proverb i believe i...
Apr 22nd

remember when may 30, 2008...

seemed like it would Never come?  like it was light years away? well, now it’s only a hop...
Apr 22nd
i have a wicked imagination.  too wicked for my own good. i fall in + out love more times in a day...
Apr 22nd

quiet (shhhh!): genius at work

i actually watched half an episode (maybe more) of family guy the other nite in spanish.  the first...
Apr 21st

best job ever

so fa, so great.  :)  clearly i kid- but it was the most solid first day i have ever had.  not that...
Apr 21st
“Even if you’re on the right track, you’ll get...”
— will rogers reminds of a...
Apr 21st

blu(e?) ray

please explain.
Apr 21st

rules of the road:

hold head High be Confident- believe in You (i need to remind myself of this All the...
Apr 21st
“let me tell you two things we definitely do Not need in our...”
— me to lovely friend of mine
Apr 21st

ahhh, Now i get it.

vampire weekend. must. see. Live.
Apr 20th

things i was thinking at the time...

several months ago… was it simply two talents, weaving together a fantasy of words, one that...
Apr 20th

i don't

firstly, i am not a huge fan of diamonds (i know- gasp.) secondly, when i see a female around my age...
Apr 20th

ray

if you’re a dude, + you’re sporting a button down that has the name “ray”...
Apr 20th

today

sitting waiting for my dear friend in the window seat at mudd.  thinking i can sit there alone all...
Apr 20th

because we Will open our dream...

me: dude, someone rented our space.
mech: we'll take the old restaurant space on 10th- there's a garden in back.
me: done
me: yoga in the garden? Amazing!
mech: best place ever.
*don't tell me nyc isn't desperate for this Brilliant combination!
Apr 20th

sometimes i wish time could stand...

Apr 20th
“Believe nothing, no matter where you read it, or who said...”
— -the buddha i’m a...
Apr 20th

tomorrow

i’m a kid on her first day of kindergarten. but no new box of crayons. just an unbinding...
Apr 20th

dear job,

it’s been real. off to tackle new horizons. it’s going to be Spectacular.  i feel it in...
Apr 17th

some people walk into our lives...

there is a lady who works at the job i am about to leave.  she sings in the bathroom stalls, smiles...
Apr 17th

silly games i play + you can too

i claim, at the top of this blog to share a side of me that i am pretty certain most people have as...
Apr 17th
jessicagoldharalson: Newsweek writes about this new...
Apr 17th
“duuuuuude! worst email game i have Ever kicked.”
— me to friend.  why...
Apr 17th

cool news

right now i am doing serveral things that fall under the category of “following my...
Apr 17th

think do think do think do think do...

not the other way around file this under “note to Fucking self” 
Apr 16th

about that polygamy thing...

this just makes me Physically ill. it truly pains me to know that there are people (read: many,...
Apr 16th
“you are such a nut! candy-coated, salty-sweet, but still a...”
— -norah damn.  how can someone...
Apr 16th

best news i've heard All day:

woody allen has an untitled project starring larry david. i think i just died + went to heaven.
Apr 16th

why do i say yes when what i really mean...

Apr 16th
yeah, i'd get with that.
Apr 16th

do you ever..

find yourself doing something that’s slightly on the “i am an asshole” tip?  you...
Apr 16th

i am So major

yup yup!  i am getting business cards at the new job :) if not certified before, it’s...
Apr 16th
“See I’m a young soul in this very strange world Hoping...”
— yael naim, new soul (aka: song...
Apr 16th

than i don't want to be everyone!*

me: ohhh! good nite, huh? uploading pics?
cute coworker: yeeeees!
me: oh crap! i'm not on facebook anymore. well, i mean i disabled my account.
cute coworker: whhhhhhy?
me: because i spent way too much time looking at other people pictures.
me: that just makes me feel all kinds of weird.
me: and creepy.
cute coworker: ha! everyone does that.
*but i do love her (even more) for telling me that : )
Apr 16th

email from mom, re: do we have to resort...

Jewish divorceAn elderly man in Miami calls his son in New York and says, ‘I hate toruin ...
Apr 16th

in my past life..

i was a maid.  100% fo’ sure. + no, i will not come clean your apartment!
Apr 16th

what i am wearing today

a smile. why: it’s sunny, i have a hot date tonite, it’s sunny, i’m not a...
Apr 16th

language barriers

i wonder what the world would be like without them.
Apr 16th
“oh of course! no problem!”
— i hear myself saying this a...
Apr 15th

man purse

never okay in my book.  Never. + don’t tell me (like dude i dated) that “you need it for...
Apr 15th

short term goals:

1) learn how to play poker 2) go to shooting range 3) save up to get a bigger, better ipod.  music...
Apr 15th

feeling flighty

i am not into my posts lately.  there, it’s been said.   i’m over myself? ...
Apr 15th

if seeing forgetting sarah marshall is...

than i don’t want to be right. i truly think this one may surprise us + surpass the...
Apr 15th

it's spring! it's really spring

in my opinion there is No better city in the world to celebrate springtime than new york! my aura is...
Apr 15th

70-20-10

breakdown of my brain function in percentage rates.
Apr 14th

don't look through me, look at me.

you’re eyes are piercing my soul.* *i have no idea why words like this float through my brain,...
Apr 14th
“+ the wheels just keep on turning, the drummer begins to...”
— kingdom come, coldplay...
Apr 14th

inside voice

the one we should use while on telephone at office. hear me over there?   yeah, didn’t think...
Apr 14th
one minute you're in...the next? you're Out
Apr 14th

ready

for new job. Very ready. 
Apr 14th

something i am learning about myself:

i second guess my first intention way too often. i need to Stand behind myself taller + prouder!  i...
Apr 14th

strong consideration

i am strongly considering deleting my facebook account. what do i Really use this thing...
Apr 14th

today

good day.  i feel really Positive vibes. my aura is light blue. it feels good.  it’s spring. ...
Apr 14th
hot chip: H-O-T who knew nerdy boys from britian could be...
Apr 14th

last nite i had a dream that someone...

scary shit.
Apr 14th
“Everyone discusses my art and pretends to understand, as if...”
— Claude Monet (via tender) you...
Apr 14th
“it always fasincates me how people can go from loving you...”
— julie delphy, two days in...
Apr 13th

what i am thinking while watching two...

i’m thinking: i feel as if julie delphy is cheating on ethan hawk i am falling slightly...
Apr 13th

visit the hearst tower this weekend

if you have time, come take a peek. they are dressing the windows for the filming of...
Apr 11th

unusally high threshold for physical...

unusally low for the emotional kind… i simply can’t seem to escape the extremes.
Apr 11th

elevator music

bring it back.  it would make this a less awkward space (maybe). however may i suggest some really...
Apr 11th

texting

a form of communication that’s truly creating barriers in the breakthroughs made in the world...
Apr 11th

procrastinating

recently, i have mastered this fine activity. can it even be considered an activity? ...
Apr 11th

when i was a little girl

i would spend many sleepless nites, lying awake in bed, thinking. i suppose i was a bit of an...
Apr 11th

dear mr. karp,

i see you’ve made some adjustments.  so far they are not working for me. this mini text...
Apr 11th

what i learned yesterday:

just because i am not in rush, doesn’t mean that everyone feels the same way. lots of pushing...
Apr 11th

feet vent

dummyhead says: God I have ugly feet. And with today being the first day that is actaully pretty...
Apr 11th

when little things bother me...

it bothers me. life’s too short + there is Too much to smile about. do i think this brief post...
Apr 10th